I wanted to write a little today on the subject of trust. Perhaps this isn’t really relevant to our music at the moment, but I’m sure a song will come out of this at some point. In this year 2012, I am trying to focus on trusting completely. Trusting that whatever happens, is meant to happen. I think we all (me, very much so) spend the majority of our time trying to be in control of everything. Whilst thats all very good and you can get yourself to some fantastic places, experiences and situations that way, what if there’s something even better out there that’s meant to be happening, that you haven’t let happen because you’re in too much control?
So…with our band ‘Unsung Lilly’ in particular, I am completely trusting. Yesterday I went to the hairdressers and gave them no direction whatsoever – I just said ‘do what you think is best’. The hairdresser looked incredibly excited and pleased with this – I guess they don’t get that very often, and she obviously enjoyed the creativity of what I was asking her to do. As a result, I have gone from blonde to brunette, which I would never have done in a million years…but actually, after having spent almost 24 hours now with this new look, I’ve realised it is perhaps a little more ‘me’. We have a photoshoot on Tuesday, and I am giving our photographer no specifications at all – just asking him to be creative and go with his intuition. If I get one of our songs in my head, and can’t get it out, then that is the next one to record. In the weeks coming up to when I started writing our song ‘Silence’ – every time I sat at a keyboard, the first line just came out of me. I thought it sounded silly so fought it for a while, but once I’d let it happen, we recorded the song and now many people say its their favourite of our tracks. If someone doesn’t like our music, then thats fine too because I trust that other people will. If a big recording session gets postponed, then it wasn’t meant to be that day and we’ll obviously get a better result on a different day. Some days I personally feel like I have NO idea what I am doing and wonder if I should be doing a band at all…but I trust and it helps me move forward. If an interesting or inspiring idea comes, i am just getting on and doing it (like this blog, for example), no matter how crazy or unconventional it may seem.
So…its going to be interesting how it turns out! Its certainly already making me try things that I would never have let myself try before, so it has to be a good thing!
The reason I wanted to write about this was to say to you, anyone who is reading this…. what opportunities or ideas are being thrown at you today that you are not letting come into your life? Maybe try with just one thing and see what happens when you just trust that its there for a reason… who knows where it could take your or what could happen tomorrow because of it?
Just a rambling thought anyway, sent with love from